“So?” I’m trying to make this my new mantra in my head when I start to feel embarrassed in front of people or when I keep quiet because I am worried people are going to think that if I say something it would just be stupid. I’d like to claim that I thought of this all on my own, but yeah no I was reading the “O” magazine and it was talking about how people let the fear of embarrassment hold them back from doing things or speaking up. When in reality people really aren’t judging you nearly as much as we fear they are (or well that I fear they are) and technically so what if they are? Why should I let someone else feelings over how or what I do dictate my life? Don’t get me wrong though this is all a work in progress. I’m not suddenly going to become uninhibited (yeah I just wanted to say that word) No streaking in my near future actually never in my future will there be any streaking. Basically though I just tired of letting my worries of what other people might think of me hold me back from what I want to do. I shouldn’t be afraid of what other people might think of me because regularly I make a fool out of myself. Jon is good at not caring at what other people think. It’s not even a conscious thing for him. He just doesn’t care…..I’ll just say it’s a work in progress a slow progress….

“I never knew”…..yeah just the song playing at the moment. I’m at work again while doing this. Hmmm yeah my mind suddenly just went completely blank….I was asked a good question the other day “Do you exercise to be healthy or for vanity?” I had to think about it for a sec and answered with complete honesty, both. I exercise so that I can have more energy, take care of my heart,…..

Okay its’ totally the next day now as I’m writing this it got crazy busy yesterday so I didn’t have any time to finish this. “Take me on!!!!!!”….I’m listening to the 80’s station today every song that comes on I just want to start cracking up on or start busting out singing. There really is no music that compares to the 80’s it was something unique….Anyways I’m gonna go see the Harry Potter movie today, I can’t wait for the book to come out next week though its going to be hard to not have some one ruin it for me because everyone is going to be talking about it because it is the last one. :( We’re short again at work to today so my writing this will be sporadic and confusing. So no different from my usual…..I have one more week until mini vacation time and boy oh boy I can’t wait for it to come. I can’t believe I just said boy oh boy. Why is it that when you want something to come it takes forever and then once it gets here it goes by so quickly?.....I couldn’t believe when I was in the shower this morning that I heard rain coming down and no it was not the shower I heard or a sprinkler it was actually raining. Man we have some funky weather nowadays (yeah I just wanted to say nowadays)…..My boss totally just came up to my desk and asked me why it smelled like chocolate chip cookies. I told him it was probably my lotion which he was like no it smells like chocolate chip cookies. So then I had him smell it which I just about died laughing from seeing him smell it. After he had to admit that yeah that’s what he was smelling. I told him I thought he was coming over to complain about my 80’s music. He laughed and said “80’s were you even born in the 80’s?”….yeah he graduated from high school the year after I was born. :)