To buy or not to buy? That is definitely not the question because of course you should always buy. Would you call buying four pairs of Uggs within a 1 ½ period an obsession? I wouldn’t. I would call it obsession more like appreciation for a good pair of boots. Also technically the last pair were leather ones so they should last a long time. Yes, yes, I know I’m just trying to make myself feel better about buying them and it worked I do feel better. Doesn’t take much to convince me. What is it about going shopping that can make your whole day better? I’ve been told I have a problem and should seek help, but I just love to go shopping. I pretty much like to shop for anything only on the rare occasion do I not enjoy shopping….

Man I can’t believe that summer is over and done with. Where did the time go? It doesn’t even feel like I really had a summer. Although I guess that’s what happens when you get older everything goes at warp speed just not in a good way…..I’m taking a personal finance class and I hate it. I’m done with school and I hate the whole concept of doing homework and taking tests. In fact during my lunch today I have to do my homework. How sucky is that? Totally sucky, I know. Its funny, but not that I hate my finance class, yet I work in a finance department. Numbers and me just don’t mix very well. We have a hate relationship okay yeah I know that sounded stupid because I don’t have a relationship with numbers….anyways I’ve been at my new job for over 6 months now and you know what the crazy thing is?......

Yeah I didn’t get to finish that thought the other day and I have no idea now what I was going to say probably nothing that important because majority of what I say just floats around in my brain for awhile and then disappears sometimes never to be seen again. That totally sounded like a kidnapping…..So yesterday I went to this class that talked about buying your first home or just buying a home in general and you know what I learned? That I need to save a lot more money before Jon and I can buy a house next year. If we can even really do that which I just don’t know if that can happen. There are so many extra costs that go along with buying a house that it is ridiculous…..So tonight is girl’s night. We are meeting at a place that has like 16 different kinds of hot chocolate. Of course for those who don’t like icky hot chocolate they have apple cider. Yum, yum. I’m trying to deal with my addiction to shopping. For example, my boots finally came in so I have to go pick them up, but I’m afraid that when I go I will also buy stuff when I’m there. I just don’t know how to stop wanting to buy clothes. Another thing that sucks is that it is still too warm to wear all the new clothes I have got recently. And yes I realize that this whole topic is pathetic that I’m complaining about a shopping addiction so yeah I’m just going to stop now and feel stupid (nothing new to me)……

I just got back from playing bingo at work and big surprise I didn’t win. It’s crazy though how disappointed you can get just because they didn’t call your number. And when I say disappointed I mean yelling out the numbers they should have called and pouting about how you were so close to winning. So very mature in a room full of “adults” and yes when I said that I started to move my hands in a quotation movement. All I can do now is sit and ponder my existence. Yeah right I’m gonna go listen to my Ipod, work, and hope the hours go by quickly…….

“So?” I’m trying to make this my new mantra in my head when I start to feel embarrassed in front of people or when I keep quiet because I am worried people are going to think that if I say something it would just be stupid. I’d like to claim that I thought of this all on my own, but yeah no I was reading the “O” magazine and it was talking about how people let the fear of embarrassment hold them back from doing things or speaking up. When in reality people really aren’t judging you nearly as much as we fear they are (or well that I fear they are) and technically so what if they are? Why should I let someone else feelings over how or what I do dictate my life? Don’t get me wrong though this is all a work in progress. I’m not suddenly going to become uninhibited (yeah I just wanted to say that word) No streaking in my near future actually never in my future will there be any streaking. Basically though I just tired of letting my worries of what other people might think of me hold me back from what I want to do. I shouldn’t be afraid of what other people might think of me because regularly I make a fool out of myself. Jon is good at not caring at what other people think. It’s not even a conscious thing for him. He just doesn’t care…..I’ll just say it’s a work in progress a slow progress….

“I never knew”…..yeah just the song playing at the moment. I’m at work again while doing this. Hmmm yeah my mind suddenly just went completely blank….I was asked a good question the other day “Do you exercise to be healthy or for vanity?” I had to think about it for a sec and answered with complete honesty, both. I exercise so that I can have more energy, take care of my heart,…..

Okay its’ totally the next day now as I’m writing this it got crazy busy yesterday so I didn’t have any time to finish this. “Take me on!!!!!!”….I’m listening to the 80’s station today every song that comes on I just want to start cracking up on or start busting out singing. There really is no music that compares to the 80’s it was something unique….Anyways I’m gonna go see the Harry Potter movie today, I can’t wait for the book to come out next week though its going to be hard to not have some one ruin it for me because everyone is going to be talking about it because it is the last one. :( We’re short again at work to today so my writing this will be sporadic and confusing. So no different from my usual…..I have one more week until mini vacation time and boy oh boy I can’t wait for it to come. I can’t believe I just said boy oh boy. Why is it that when you want something to come it takes forever and then once it gets here it goes by so quickly?.....I couldn’t believe when I was in the shower this morning that I heard rain coming down and no it was not the shower I heard or a sprinkler it was actually raining. Man we have some funky weather nowadays (yeah I just wanted to say nowadays)…..My boss totally just came up to my desk and asked me why it smelled like chocolate chip cookies. I told him it was probably my lotion which he was like no it smells like chocolate chip cookies. So then I had him smell it which I just about died laughing from seeing him smell it. After he had to admit that yeah that’s what he was smelling. I told him I thought he was coming over to complain about my 80’s music. He laughed and said “80’s were you even born in the 80’s?”….yeah he graduated from high school the year after I was born. :)

Sunscreen (Saying that I felt like that one song called sunscreen that is the guy talking….). Out of all the things I will now sunscreen is the one thing that should be heard and used. Well last Wednesday my work allowed us to go to a Rivercats game during work it was at around 12 in the afternoon and I only ended up staying and hour, but I still got burned to a crisp on my chest, arms, and bottom half of my legs. It was so bad that I could run on Saturday. I mean I tried to, but my skin was so raw mom said that it would just cause it to blister. Yeah I was mad. Before you even ask only had sunscreen on my face. Yeah I know me who is so big on sunscreen and I didn’t wear it. I’m the whole pot kettle black scenario…..Anyways I got my hair cut yesterday. I like I now have bangs and the last time I had those was in elementary school I think. It’s weird though because they are naturally flowing to the side instead of falling straight down. Don’t get me wrong I totally like it because they aren’t in my eyes. It must have been how she cut them. I still don’t think that Jon will notice my haircut though he is just not that observant about those kind of things. It doesn’t bug me though because I expect, its just funny….Speaking of funny this last Saturday Jon, me, and his little brother Derek went to scandia and played minature golf. Recently though they put in a ride there called the screamer and I thought it would be fun to go on it. It’s not a real scary ride just has two long ends that spin around in circles while your strapped in to an open seat. Totally fun and not scary at all right? Big WRONG according to Jon he was totally nervous about going on it, but he said he would still go. I think it was that whole I have to be macho mentality (yeah I just wanted to say that word). So when we were waiting in line to go on there were all these couples waiting in line and the funny thing is it was all the guys who were nervous and well just plain scared…..sorry had to take a break had a team meeting a work we played scategories I lost by one point, a lot of my answers though I just totally make up and see if anyone notices, they haven’t yet. :P I love when I wake up feeling good because I have had such a great sleep. That is totally how it was this morning for me. The only interruption in sleep I had last night was when Jon called me at like think 11 to let me know he just got back from fishing. It’s all a little hazy I don’t even know what my response was I think I remember him laughing. Now that I think about though why were they fishing so late? Who knows…I’m listening to yahoo radio and its supposed to be the big hits of the 90’s, but so far if what there playing is accurate then the 90’s had some sucky music…..man I totally wish today was Friday and not the kind of I wish it was Friday and its actually Monday. I’m talking about the man I wish it was Friday because it needs to be Friday instead of Thursday. Say it ain’t so!!!!! (happens to be the song playing right now weezer 1994)….i want to go to a concert this summer…

Okay this one I wrote on June 14. From now on i'll try to post them as i write them not post them weeks later after the fact. :)

70 degrees at 6:30AM. Yep that's how warm it was this morning as I was driving to work. Let me make it clear though that I am not complaining though because I much rather hot than cold. I complain all the time which i didn't need to say because anyone who is reading this already knows that because they have to hear it all the time....So keep breathing because i'm not leaving you anymore...yeah that was the lyrics of the song on my mp3 and i started singing and typing it at the same time. i really have to be careful about the singing though because i'm at work so yeah that would not be a good thing. People have already caught me singing and yeah well i think we all know what they had to say.....I'm going to a river cats game tonight with jon and his fam, i wonder how warm it will be by then.....Oh well i'll just make sure to wear lots of sunscreen...speaking of suncreen i'm gonna get on my soapbox now (yeah i just wanted to say soapbox) and ramble on about the importance of sunscreen since i was reading a certain someones blog last night and they were talking about reading a book while laying out in the sun, but they didn't say they were wearing sunsreen. They better have or i'm gonna kick their butt. In case that person doesn't know who they are all i'm gonna say is Milwakee (yeah im sure i spelled that wrong. So i can't stress the importance of sunscreen enough it is just soooooo important. did you know that skin cancer is one of the leader in most popular cancers. yeah i know thats a weird way of wording it, but in this case you don't want to be part of the popular crowd well really you should never feel that you need to be popular to have people like you....sorry i got off track i totally just started to write what i was thinking....hmmmm oh yeah sunscreen basically just wear it and i'm not talking about 8spf i'm talking about 30spf uva&uvb protected and reapply it often. Protect your future you want to be around for a long time right? I don't know about you, but i get scared all the time that my nose is going to fall off from skin cancer.....Okay i'll get off my soapbox now (yesss i got to say soapbox again)....well my life is pretty much the same.....hmmmm my mind has completly gone blank...yeah i know not that unsual. why is it when you want time to pass quickly it doesn't, but when you don't it does?.....is there really such a thing as the perfect job? I don't think there is, but i sure have it pretty good. Next week we get to go to a river cats game during work. i mean what kind of company does that? and cake day every last day of the month? just imagine like 15 different sheet cakes of all kinds of flavors. its almost just too much. i'm certainly not used to it compared to my last job....you know i wish jon mayer was touring again this summer. he is such an awesome guitar player.....i wish i wasn't always feeling so antsy. i always feel like i should be doing something going somewhere or planning something. hmmmm well i guess thats it for me. i know your really disappointed my rambling is over.

I actually wrote this blog on May 31st and emailed it to myself, but never got around to posting it so I decided to do it now. I have another one coming that I wrote a week or so ago too....
Hmmmm well what can I say time passes quickly….i don’t even remember the last time that I wrote. It’s amazing how life can change so quickly….ok I know I’m sounding melodramatic (yeah I just wanted to be able to say that word). Well I no longer work at the doctors office. Thank goodness cause I thought I was going to die from complete boredom. I think I was literally loosing active brain cells because my brain never had to use them so they became numb. The one thing that really sucks is I no longer get to see my best bud everyday. It’s sucks because we were so used to talking and seeing each other everyday. We saw each other more than we saw our boyfriends, I know probably not such a good thing. However, we are still the best of friends and when we do get to see each other nothing has changed. I think that shows how strong our relationship is. Okay enough of that gush….Well lets see what have I been doing other than sleeping and going to work? Oh yeah I have been eating in between and during those things. I had grilled mahi mahi for the first time a couple of weeks ago and it was sooooo good….Oh I recently paid off my car. My car loan was for five years and I paid it off in three years and one month. It feels good to know that it’s all mine, but at the same time I’m kinda waiting for something bad to happen because I remember a couple days after Julie paid off her echo she got in an accident. Hopefully, though nothing like that happens to me.

So my new job….I absolutely love the company they treat their employees so good. For example in June they are paying for us to go to an afternoon River Cats game during work. I mean what kind of place does those kinds of things? It’s crazy. I have to say it has taking me quite a bit to get used to all of the good things they do for their employees. The last day of every month is cake day and so we go over to HQ1 (building 1) and in the cafeteria (yep they have their own cafeteria and game room) and over against one wall there are tables spread out with about 25 or more sheet cakes to choose from and I mean they have every thing from raspberry crème cake to chocolate truffle cake(yeah it is as rich tasting as it sounds). It’s just crazy. Even with all these good things I’m surrounded with I still feel antsy. What I do isn’t very exciting and I get quite bored, but I just remind myself that the company I work for is and at 6 months I can start testing and applying for different departments. They are very big on hiring from within the company. My boss is also awesome which is another thing I’m not used to my last boss used to make me feel bad every time I asked for a day off or basically just anything I asked her which is totally opposite of my new boss…..Anyone reading this must have fallen asleep by now and is no longer reading this. Sorry I know my life is one big bore.

Today I decided that I am going to start saving for a trip to I don’t know where. Of course I’m not going to go until next summer, but I need to start saving now because I want to go for at least two weeks so I’m thinking its going to cost me at least $2,000. I’m thinking of putting some money in a cd so in a year from now I can take it out and have at least a little bit of interest. I’m just getting excited thinking of all the things I can plan to do and all the research I get to get.

Do I or don't I???????

That is the question I keep asking myself. Did I or did I not get the job? They sure made me think I got it. They did everything, but tell me your hired. First let me rewind and tell you exactly what the interview was like. You may be able to use this as things not to say during an interview. It was really two interviews. First with the HR department and then with the actual department i'd be working in. First one when great and I think I was exactly what she was looking for (yeah I know what you're thinking boy I feel sorry for her). It was the second that was well......I can't think of the right word.....

Oh yeah so the second one was with the two supervisors of the department and it started off fine I answered all the questions to their liking then the guy pops out with "Oh by the way I hope it doesn't bother you, but we allow smoking on the floor" and the first thing that popped out of my mouth was "ok" and then I was like wait ewhhhhhhhh is that legal? Then he was like "I'm totally joking with you" so the interview is still going ok and they asked if I had any questions and I was like "What kind of shoes are allowed could I wear open toed? and he was like "Yeah, but no thongs or anything like that" and what came tumbling out of my blabbering mouth???? Yep stupidly I said "Do you mean flip flops?" (I am so laughing at my stupidity right now) The guy like turned bright red paused for a minute and was like yeah thats what I meant. The girl was just crackin up though. So I tried to roll over that mud hole, but then rolled right into another when I was like "Well I'm just so used to wearing scrubs and sneakers" and he was like "What's scrubs are those sneakers?" and I said, "Are you serious?" and the girl started laughing and the guy had this blank look on his face and I said "You really are serious you don't know" and then the girl informed him what they were and he was like oh those. So you're thinking it can't get any worse right? That I couldn't say anything any more stupid than I already have right? Well actually if you know me you know that I was just on a roll so why not keep going right? Anyways after a minute they were like is there anything else you would like to tell us? And I started out good with "I love to learn new things," and then I had to add "I'm slow, but once I get something I do it well and remember it" and before I could say more they both started laughing and the guy was like "Great thing to say interviews over" he was totally joking around, but I wonder what he was really thinking.....

Now that I have typed all this out and let me tell you I have only talked about the highlights of the interview...yeah now that I think about it I pretty much know for sure I didn't get it, but oh well at least I provided some comic relief for those who might read this. I can't can't imagine what my next interview will be like... :)

I am so tired of being cold, but.....at least it's sunny out. The other day I went out with my mom and her bottle of water in the car was frozen. Can you believe that? I know its just plain wrong.

Hmmmm so its 2007. I hate odd numbered years. Well I actually just don't like odd numbers. Yeah, I know totally weird. I miss fruit....yeah I know we have oranges, but I miss peaches, nectarines, strawberries, and so on.....I guess I just miss summer. Winter is my least favorite season.

Okay lets see if I have anything worthwhile to say....Nope can't think of a thing. Do you wish life was normal? I always say in passing that I wish it was, but now that I think about it I don't because then I would be way too bored....whoa that was a little too deep. I scared myself with that one....lol ahhh I'm such a dork.

My fingertips are completely purple....man i just read over what I have said so far and it was a bad idea cause well yeah you know after reading it why....maybe I'm just off today because we had Monday off so today is Tuesday yet I keep thinking it is Monday....If you could go anywhere where would it be? Me I would go to New Zealand and Bora Bora. I'd go to New Zealand because it is just so beautiful and Bora Bora because I just love saying it.

My fingers have now fallen off from frostbite so I am now typing with my nose which is not very easy let me tell you....ahhhh I give up I just don't have the energy..... :)