Well this morning was full of firsts for Lexi and me. First time I had to sit in a waiting area with a screaming baby and first shots for Lexi. The thing is I didn't mind her crying I just can't stand it when I can't soothe her. Then I figured out is all she wanted was to fall asleep. After I figured that out though all I had to do was nurse her and she fell right asleep. It worked out well cuz she was asleep when I brought her into the injection room for her shots (3 total). I had put her in a sack this morning so I wouldn't have to worry about putting her legs back into an outfit. So they gave her this liquid stuff first to counteract any possible side effects which she woke up for and sucked right down then fell right back to sleep. Got the first shot in one leg, gave one wail then fell right back to sleep. Got two more shots in her other leg wailed then fell right back to sleep. When I came out the other moms were like we didn't even hear her scream. After I nursed her just to get her feeling settled and once we got home gave her some tylenol. Oh I also made sure to rub the place where she got the injections cuz otherwise it can cause bruising. All and all I think it was harder on me than it was on her. I just hate that she even had to feel that little bit of pain. Oh, I almost forgot she now weighs 10lbs 4oz and is 22ins. My little Lexi is getting so big, I just can't believe she is already 2 months. Below are a few pics. Enjoy! :)

Lexi enjoying the 3D commercial during the Superbowl yesterday

Let me just say she is never this happy to be in her car seat, but
Grandma was talking to her so she didn't mind being in it

Sorry about the red eye, but doesn't she look
cute sitting there with her Uncle James (aka Uncle Ratzi)

She just loves it when you talk to her :)

Since Lexi is sleeping in her swing for the moment I thought I would post a quick blog. I know some experts say you shouldn't let babies fall asleep in a swing, but you know what if it makes them feel good then why not. I really don't think its going to make her want to sleep in it all the time. Anyways lets see Lexi is now 7 weeks old and the time is just passing so quickly. I love every minute I get to spend with her. She can be a pretty fussy baby, but I think that kind of thing just comes with the territory. She has one strong appetite, she still likes to eat every two hours. Although in the evenings its closer to every hour. She was sleeping really good like a 5 hour stretch at night, but then I started taking fenugreek a herb to increase my milk supply. Lets just say I stopped taking that after a couple of days because she was not liking it. It's crazy how much of what I eat effects her. Just yesterday she made her first real cooing sounds "OOOO". She also did her first real intentional grab. She grabbed my mom's thumb. I wasn't there to see it (I was in the shower), but my mom took a pic. I think she has started her grabbing phase because right after that she started pulling on my hair. Let me tell you she has one strong grip. Oh last week we went to the lactation consultant and Lexi got weighed and she is now 8lbs 14oz. She is growing to fast. I try not to think about going back to work because I still have a little over 2 months left so I'm just going to enjoy the time I have with her.
She has her 2 month checkup coming up on Feb. 2 and I'm not looking forward to it. She has to get her first shots, three of them. I love her doc though she is super nice and has a 10 month old son herself so I feel even more comfortable knowing she just went through all this stuff.
Oh lexi just reminded me right now of something. One thing I learned is that when they are sleeping and wake up sometimes crying they are not always really waking up. Alot of the time it is just them waking up briefly, but then if you wait a minute they will fall back asleep on their own....My mom, Lexi, Toots, and I have gone on a few walks and although lexi has pretty much slept through all of them, I have loved them. I now we need rain, but I sure have enjoyed the weather we have had recently. Thanks to those who made it possible for me to get the Bob stroller it truly is great! I know lexi will enjoy it too once she stays up long enough. :) These walks were the first time I have got to jog with toots because I was always prego before. I swear that dog was born to run.
My whole life revolves around Lexi and I love it. I am just so blessed to have her as my daughter!

P.S. Thanks to my fam for always helping out I love ya!

We'll lets see in case anyone is wondering I am no longer in labor. Yeah, I know duh. In fact I ended up having her the night I wrote my last blog. I never would have thought it could happen so quickly, but I was admitted into the hospital on Sunday, November 30th at 6:00pm and delivered her that night at 8:36. I ended up having a natural vaginal birth, with everything happening so quickly I wasn't able to get an epidural. They did give me something in my iv (I think it was called fenterol or something) it took the edge off for like 5 minutes which isn't very long, but it sure helped at the time. Oddly enough when they told me I wasn't gonna be able to have the epidural I wasn't upset, mostly I think because I was just ready for her to come out. Thankfully she was ready too, I only pushed for 11 minutes and out popped Alexandra Marie Cox at 7lbs 1oz and 19in long. I don't think there was a dry eye in the room. I just remember crying and saying "I have my baby girl!" and then to anyone I could see "Thank you, Thank you!" My mom asked me recently how I would rate my labor and delivery in reguard to pain. Honestly, the majority of it wasn't painful. Through the early parts while I was at home my fam helped me breathe through it all and drink lots of water. The part that caused pain was while I was in the hospital and was in the transition phase and went from 4 to 8 in an hour and half(this was when I was ready to give up, also when I asked for the epidural). The pushing didn't hurt, it actually felt good in an odd way because I knew it meant she was coming. Although I do recall as her shoulders were coming out say "Ouch that stings". I guess I should say I may remember things diferently and my fam may say I was in more pain, but I think overall it went well. I am not in any way trying to say I'm superwomen though, just that I feel blessed things went so smoothly.

I don't think I can express how lucky and blessed I feel to be Lexi's mom. Everyday I love her more and more. Even though a year ago I never would have guessed that I would be a mom, I now can't imagine not being one. Totally weird I know. I have had a lot of first's in these last two weeks. First time changing a diaper, first time giving a baby a bath (yeah that was just a tad nerve wracking), first time nursing (support is the key to sucess with this), yeah I could just go on and on. The odd thing is that I love it all because all those things alow me to spend time with her. I just can't say it enough I love her! :)

So I'm in labor. You're probably wondering why the heck is she blogging if she is in labor, right? We'll I'm wondering the same thing, but I guess because it's only the beginning so I'm trying to keep myself busy so I don't think about it. So far the contractions have been like really strong cramps I guess is the only way I can describe it. Except at the same time they are different. Every time I feel like tensing up I just try and relax my body and breathe slowly. So far it works pretty well. Fingers crossed it will continue to help me. My fam is being so great they are all just right there for me. I was just thinking dang this means I have to have a name for her and I still have absolutely no idea what to choose. Hopefully I'll see her and it will just come to me.....My little piece of advice for labor is drink as much water as you can handle it helps to keep the labor progressing....

I have just a little over a week to go before my due date. I can't believe it, but I am so ready to meet her. I know that it sounds stupid, but I wish that she would be born before the 1st so that she makes the school deadline. I have a feeling though that she wont. :( I think I have all the little things pretty much taken care of, I even finally got my bag packed. My family is all resting much easier now. Literally my whole family was getting nervous about it even my dad. We'll just thought I would get a short update gotta go bug dad to see if he will hang my shelves.....

I'm just gonna warn you now that the following is just a bunch of boringness about myself so I wont be offended if you fall asleep trying to read it. My sincere apologies.....

8 TV shows I like to watch:
1. NCIS
2. Project Runway
3. America's next top model (yeah I know its sad, but true)
4. Oprah
5. I love Lucy
6. CSI Las Vegas
7. CSI Miami
8. Grey's Anatomy (not anymore but I used to watch it faithfully)

8 Favorite Restaurants
**I don't really eat out so this one is kinda hard**
1. Mr. Pickle (The Hot T is to die for)
2. Mimi's
3. La Mission (I could just eat a whole plate of just beans, rice, and sour cream)
4. Tops Yogurt (Some might not consider it a restaurant, but I love it so yeah)
5. Olive garden (soup and salad yum yum)
6. Selland's (A local catering place that has great salads)
7. La bou' (I love their worm salad. Not really worms, but I don't know the real name)
8. Ike's (It is a little family owned deli near my work that bakes their pita bread fresh everyday. The best part really is the bread, but their thing is sandwiches)

8 things that happened yesterday:
1. I went to work
2. Heather and my mom got me a super soft silk rug for my room
3. I went shopping for a new comforter with my mom
4. Picked up a few things for my pumpkin pal at work
5. Played fetch with Toots
6. Got a call from a Kaiser person who apologized for the teacher not showing up at the newborn class last week.
7. Had the last slice of homemade cheesecake left over from my birthday
8. Was reminded I only have 13 workdays left until I go on maternity leave

8 things I'm looking forward to:
1. Birth of my baby girl!!
2. Halloween our theme is 70's this year at work
3. November 14th my last day before maternity leave
4. Thanksgiving (I love everyone just being together)
5. Friday because then its the weekend!! whoo hoo!!!
6. Kristina coming for her baby shower
7. Tomorrow's lunch with Aunt Carel (I just love having lunch with her)
8. The next ultrasound I have with Julie

8 things on my wish list:
1. To win the lottery so I can stay home with baby
2. To buy my first house
3. For my family to be safe, happy, and healthy
4. To be a good momma
5. To have a husband
6. To make more money
7. To loose my baby weight within 9 months of having baby
8. To be thoughtful and kind toward others

8 People I am Tagging:
1. How about just anyone who wants to do it does it :P

So I took the day off to "rest" and get some errands run. Did I get anything done? Nope well I did go to the bank, but that is about it. Why is it when I try to plan to get things done I actually don't do anything? Things always seem to end up that way....Last night I got my little girl her mattress. It was so cool to see it there in the crib. I swear the girl has a nicer mattress than me. Oh well today while I was home I watched a baby story a couple of times and.....yeah ugghh uhhh nope I'm good the stork is going to come and take the baby out of my belly and that is that. It's not even about the pain its just all very intense and yeah I'm definitely going to go the stork route. I think I am getting to be at the whale stage. I just feel round and yeah round. Hmmmm I can't believe I only have 6 weeks left and then baby arrives. I am still no closer to picking a name this week has been Mackenzie and call her kenzie and yes if you are wondering that is one of the names of my family dogs. She really is a great dog though and I like the name so yeah who cares if the dog has the same name? Time to go eat dinner.....

So I've been thinking I know absolutely nothing about babies. I'm the baby in my family so I was never really around any. Yes I have lots of younger cousins, but thats the thing I know toddlers and up well. Give me a baby though and I'm clueless. Really I mean totally clueless. Yes, I know the motherly instinct supposedly just kicks in, but still I have no idea what I'm in for. I just feel like I'm floating around in a sea of the unknown....

Life....you never know how fast things in your life can change. As most know I've had a lot of change lately....I've lost a lot, but yet I've gained even more and I'm not just talking about my rambunctious yet to be born baby girl. I'm talking about how I have learned a lot about myself things I may not have learned for years if I hadn't gotten pregnant. Its interesting how your priorities change and just you change when you have a baby on the way (or when you have any major life change). Even though as most know I will be raising this baby as a single mom I know that I wont be alone I have the support of so many family and friends that I know will be always willing to help. The way I look at it I feel lucky to have so many people who are there for me. It's not like I have no job or health insurance. I am lucky that I'm in such a good situation.

I think some people think they need to tiptoe around the fact that I don't have a husband, but really they don't it's a fact I don't have one so why dwell over it. Sure I'd love to have a significant other to share this with, but I don't so why cry over split milk? I don't mean to sound bitter I just have learned to be practical about it. Not to say I don't have some sad times, but there must be some reason why I became pregnant so I feel no regrets..........On to other topics. Labor and delivery....yeah maybe I'm not ready yet to talk about that. I'm just gonna go into it knowing its going to involve pain, but yet it wont last forever right? I talked to a girl at the bank last weekend who had an epidural with her first child and her leg was numb for three years until she had her next child and the epidural again where it reversed the effect. Weird huh? Freaked me out and she said she found that its not abnormal for things like that to happen. I do know that I DO NOT want to be induced. I have heard from so many of my friends that it is horrible.....Time to go..... :P

So what's new in my life....well I am 6 1/2 months pregnant....crazy I know. I still can't believe it myself sometimes. I mean I'm the baby so how can I be having one? It's crazy though she isn't even here yet, but I can't imagine her not being apart of my future. It seems like everyday I'm am preparing for her arrival....man I guess that sounded gushy sorry moving on.....Oh! I went to a John Mayer concert in July and it was totally awesome!! Me and my mom were even closer than the last time we saw him. I was standing up for pretty much a whole hour straight. The guy behinde me was quite happy once I sat down, but HELLO it was a concert. Maybe he just needed to loosen up a bit. Really I didn't care at the time I was enjoying the music so much I can't wait till he comes again. He is such an awesome live performer!!....Work is well work. I've gotten used to my job now so it doesn't stress me out like it used to. I mean we have a busy beginning and end of the month, but I know how to deal with it now. The people I work with are great. We had a team building event a couple of weeks ago where we all went bowling and played laser tag. I didn't bowl cuz of the pregnancy, but I did play laser tag. It was fun. I think it really opened us all up to each other....Man I swear Haley (her name for this week) head butts me all the time. Thankfully it doesn't hurt, it just feels funny.....We had office olympics at my work to today. It was a team event I did the paper clip diving. It was intense, but I don't think it took me more than three trys to get my clips into the tiny container of water. It was a nice little break from work....well large and in charge me is going to go feed the dogs...... :P

Please ignore icky girl with long hair she had yet to cut off her hair.

Please pay close attention to the addorable furball next to her though.

This is a pic from our camping trip to Fort Bragg in June. It was cold pretty

much the whole time, but still fun. :)

My Beautiful Baby Girl!!!
Already trying to suck her thumb.

Picture taken by Julie my sis

Here is my Toots,

I have finally posted a picture of Toots although it isn't current and isn't very good at least I got one up right? I'll try to put something up more current soon, but I can't make any promises. All I can say is my life consists of sleeping and working and entertaining Toots. I started a new position again last month. I am now an accounts payable and receivable specialist. Yeah totally not me, I know. However, it is more pay. Although I have to say there has only been one day this week where I didn't work overtime. I am pretty much exuasted every day I come home....Oh my gosh I don't know how I could forget to mention it, but guess what???? Nope you're never going to guess it so I might as well just tell you. I got.......tickets to John Mayer for when he is here in July. I can't wait. He is really good in concert and it is outside....You know how when you think of finance you think of stiff collar and stuff like that? Well its true there is a lot of that in finance. I just keep thinking how its funny I ended up in finance when it is like the complete opposite of me. I guess life just takes funny turns.
Toots is so cute I just coughed and she all of sudden stopped chewing her toy and gave me this look like "Mama are you ok?" She is a lot of work, but worth it" We have so much fun together. We went to the dog park for the first time last weekend. Lets just say I think she was in heaven. I don't think she has one aggressive bone in her body though she was on her back as soon as any dog came over to her. Dang it she just took one of my nylon knee highs. See thats what happens when I start to praise her she goes and does something mischevious....I really like the group of girls I work with. They all are different and bring something different to our group. Today we had a team lunch (we wen't to BJ's) and they are all older than me by at least ten years, but I told them in the ways that count I am older than them all. Essentially I was bagging on myself because I am a fuddy duddy, but I always have been more.....simple so i'm ok with that. Anyways they were saying they think I have an old soul. I thought that was pretty cool. Even my boss is awesome she just treats us all as equals.....One thing my new job has done is put me more at ease with is starting conversation with people. It's still not my favorite juice, (which happens to be this pomegrante blueberry one made by minute maid) but after talking on the phone to doctors and just people from other companys i've become more at ease with it. I would never in my life though call me a social butterfly. Hmmm I think I'm craving a popsicle.....

Does it make sense to say I'm so tired I can't even go to sleep?....Yeah I didnt think so. Man this new job I got is brutal. Oh yeah new thing in my life I got a new job. I love it because I am so busy the time just flies by. Its just right now everything is so new. Oh I got married and have decided to move to south Carolina because my new bubbie got a position there work is going to transfer me to a regional office there. We have already found a really nice 1 bedroom shed to live. His new job is just down the road milking cows. I am so proud of him. I couldn't wish for anything more. I sold my car and bought a 1978 winnabego for the trip out there....hmmm maybe I should hit the sack now cause I have no idea where all that came I just started typing. Oh just a bit of john Mayer news who is extremely talented as usual did the theme sing for the movie the bucket list and it is really and that is comingbfrom a totally unbiased opinion of course....the weather has been so nice the past couple of days I hope that it stays luke this. I hate the rain and cold weather they are both so uncomfortable. I recently read one of my old diaries and in it was the first date me and jinny boy went on. It was so hilarious. I wrote down to a tee everything that happend. Even how I caught him being scared to put his hand on the arm rest because mine was on it. What a scardy cat. I can't believe its going to be 8 years this April.....I really mean it I can't believe it has been that long....hmmm yeah sorry got lost in that thought for a second. I really want to buy a house right now because houses are so cheap. I just don't know how to go about it. Yeah I don't know I'll keep you updated on that. Well I officially can say that I am dead on my feet I don't even want to get up to turn the light off....on a last note I am no longer using spell check for this one I am to lazy, two diaries don't have spell check, three I'm lazy, and four I'm just too lazy. Yeah I know I over do it.....man I do just ramble on.... :P

To buy or not to buy? That is definitely not the question because of course you should always buy. Would you call buying four pairs of Uggs within a 1 ½ period an obsession? I wouldn’t. I would call it obsession more like appreciation for a good pair of boots. Also technically the last pair were leather ones so they should last a long time. Yes, yes, I know I’m just trying to make myself feel better about buying them and it worked I do feel better. Doesn’t take much to convince me. What is it about going shopping that can make your whole day better? I’ve been told I have a problem and should seek help, but I just love to go shopping. I pretty much like to shop for anything only on the rare occasion do I not enjoy shopping….

Man I can’t believe that summer is over and done with. Where did the time go? It doesn’t even feel like I really had a summer. Although I guess that’s what happens when you get older everything goes at warp speed just not in a good way…..I’m taking a personal finance class and I hate it. I’m done with school and I hate the whole concept of doing homework and taking tests. In fact during my lunch today I have to do my homework. How sucky is that? Totally sucky, I know. Its funny, but not that I hate my finance class, yet I work in a finance department. Numbers and me just don’t mix very well. We have a hate relationship okay yeah I know that sounded stupid because I don’t have a relationship with numbers….anyways I’ve been at my new job for over 6 months now and you know what the crazy thing is?......

Yeah I didn’t get to finish that thought the other day and I have no idea now what I was going to say probably nothing that important because majority of what I say just floats around in my brain for awhile and then disappears sometimes never to be seen again. That totally sounded like a kidnapping…..So yesterday I went to this class that talked about buying your first home or just buying a home in general and you know what I learned? That I need to save a lot more money before Jon and I can buy a house next year. If we can even really do that which I just don’t know if that can happen. There are so many extra costs that go along with buying a house that it is ridiculous…..So tonight is girl’s night. We are meeting at a place that has like 16 different kinds of hot chocolate. Of course for those who don’t like icky hot chocolate they have apple cider. Yum, yum. I’m trying to deal with my addiction to shopping. For example, my boots finally came in so I have to go pick them up, but I’m afraid that when I go I will also buy stuff when I’m there. I just don’t know how to stop wanting to buy clothes. Another thing that sucks is that it is still too warm to wear all the new clothes I have got recently. And yes I realize that this whole topic is pathetic that I’m complaining about a shopping addiction so yeah I’m just going to stop now and feel stupid (nothing new to me)……

I just got back from playing bingo at work and big surprise I didn’t win. It’s crazy though how disappointed you can get just because they didn’t call your number. And when I say disappointed I mean yelling out the numbers they should have called and pouting about how you were so close to winning. So very mature in a room full of “adults” and yes when I said that I started to move my hands in a quotation movement. All I can do now is sit and ponder my existence. Yeah right I’m gonna go listen to my Ipod, work, and hope the hours go by quickly…….

“So?” I’m trying to make this my new mantra in my head when I start to feel embarrassed in front of people or when I keep quiet because I am worried people are going to think that if I say something it would just be stupid. I’d like to claim that I thought of this all on my own, but yeah no I was reading the “O” magazine and it was talking about how people let the fear of embarrassment hold them back from doing things or speaking up. When in reality people really aren’t judging you nearly as much as we fear they are (or well that I fear they are) and technically so what if they are? Why should I let someone else feelings over how or what I do dictate my life? Don’t get me wrong though this is all a work in progress. I’m not suddenly going to become uninhibited (yeah I just wanted to say that word) No streaking in my near future actually never in my future will there be any streaking. Basically though I just tired of letting my worries of what other people might think of me hold me back from what I want to do. I shouldn’t be afraid of what other people might think of me because regularly I make a fool out of myself. Jon is good at not caring at what other people think. It’s not even a conscious thing for him. He just doesn’t care…..I’ll just say it’s a work in progress a slow progress….

“I never knew”…..yeah just the song playing at the moment. I’m at work again while doing this. Hmmm yeah my mind suddenly just went completely blank….I was asked a good question the other day “Do you exercise to be healthy or for vanity?” I had to think about it for a sec and answered with complete honesty, both. I exercise so that I can have more energy, take care of my heart,…..

Okay its’ totally the next day now as I’m writing this it got crazy busy yesterday so I didn’t have any time to finish this. “Take me on!!!!!!”….I’m listening to the 80’s station today every song that comes on I just want to start cracking up on or start busting out singing. There really is no music that compares to the 80’s it was something unique….Anyways I’m gonna go see the Harry Potter movie today, I can’t wait for the book to come out next week though its going to be hard to not have some one ruin it for me because everyone is going to be talking about it because it is the last one. :( We’re short again at work to today so my writing this will be sporadic and confusing. So no different from my usual…..I have one more week until mini vacation time and boy oh boy I can’t wait for it to come. I can’t believe I just said boy oh boy. Why is it that when you want something to come it takes forever and then once it gets here it goes by so quickly?.....I couldn’t believe when I was in the shower this morning that I heard rain coming down and no it was not the shower I heard or a sprinkler it was actually raining. Man we have some funky weather nowadays (yeah I just wanted to say nowadays)…..My boss totally just came up to my desk and asked me why it smelled like chocolate chip cookies. I told him it was probably my lotion which he was like no it smells like chocolate chip cookies. So then I had him smell it which I just about died laughing from seeing him smell it. After he had to admit that yeah that’s what he was smelling. I told him I thought he was coming over to complain about my 80’s music. He laughed and said “80’s were you even born in the 80’s?”….yeah he graduated from high school the year after I was born. :)

Sunscreen (Saying that I felt like that one song called sunscreen that is the guy talking….). Out of all the things I will now sunscreen is the one thing that should be heard and used. Well last Wednesday my work allowed us to go to a Rivercats game during work it was at around 12 in the afternoon and I only ended up staying and hour, but I still got burned to a crisp on my chest, arms, and bottom half of my legs. It was so bad that I could run on Saturday. I mean I tried to, but my skin was so raw mom said that it would just cause it to blister. Yeah I was mad. Before you even ask only had sunscreen on my face. Yeah I know me who is so big on sunscreen and I didn’t wear it. I’m the whole pot kettle black scenario…..Anyways I got my hair cut yesterday. I like I now have bangs and the last time I had those was in elementary school I think. It’s weird though because they are naturally flowing to the side instead of falling straight down. Don’t get me wrong I totally like it because they aren’t in my eyes. It must have been how she cut them. I still don’t think that Jon will notice my haircut though he is just not that observant about those kind of things. It doesn’t bug me though because I expect, its just funny….Speaking of funny this last Saturday Jon, me, and his little brother Derek went to scandia and played minature golf. Recently though they put in a ride there called the screamer and I thought it would be fun to go on it. It’s not a real scary ride just has two long ends that spin around in circles while your strapped in to an open seat. Totally fun and not scary at all right? Big WRONG according to Jon he was totally nervous about going on it, but he said he would still go. I think it was that whole I have to be macho mentality (yeah I just wanted to say that word). So when we were waiting in line to go on there were all these couples waiting in line and the funny thing is it was all the guys who were nervous and well just plain scared…..sorry had to take a break had a team meeting a work we played scategories I lost by one point, a lot of my answers though I just totally make up and see if anyone notices, they haven’t yet. :P I love when I wake up feeling good because I have had such a great sleep. That is totally how it was this morning for me. The only interruption in sleep I had last night was when Jon called me at like think 11 to let me know he just got back from fishing. It’s all a little hazy I don’t even know what my response was I think I remember him laughing. Now that I think about though why were they fishing so late? Who knows…I’m listening to yahoo radio and its supposed to be the big hits of the 90’s, but so far if what there playing is accurate then the 90’s had some sucky music…..man I totally wish today was Friday and not the kind of I wish it was Friday and its actually Monday. I’m talking about the man I wish it was Friday because it needs to be Friday instead of Thursday. Say it ain’t so!!!!! (happens to be the song playing right now weezer 1994)….i want to go to a concert this summer…

Okay this one I wrote on June 14. From now on i'll try to post them as i write them not post them weeks later after the fact. :)

70 degrees at 6:30AM. Yep that's how warm it was this morning as I was driving to work. Let me make it clear though that I am not complaining though because I much rather hot than cold. I complain all the time which i didn't need to say because anyone who is reading this already knows that because they have to hear it all the time....So keep breathing because i'm not leaving you anymore...yeah that was the lyrics of the song on my mp3 and i started singing and typing it at the same time. i really have to be careful about the singing though because i'm at work so yeah that would not be a good thing. People have already caught me singing and yeah well i think we all know what they had to say.....I'm going to a river cats game tonight with jon and his fam, i wonder how warm it will be by then.....Oh well i'll just make sure to wear lots of sunscreen...speaking of suncreen i'm gonna get on my soapbox now (yeah i just wanted to say soapbox) and ramble on about the importance of sunscreen since i was reading a certain someones blog last night and they were talking about reading a book while laying out in the sun, but they didn't say they were wearing sunsreen. They better have or i'm gonna kick their butt. In case that person doesn't know who they are all i'm gonna say is Milwakee (yeah im sure i spelled that wrong. So i can't stress the importance of sunscreen enough it is just soooooo important. did you know that skin cancer is one of the leader in most popular cancers. yeah i know thats a weird way of wording it, but in this case you don't want to be part of the popular crowd well really you should never feel that you need to be popular to have people like you....sorry i got off track i totally just started to write what i was thinking....hmmmm oh yeah sunscreen basically just wear it and i'm not talking about 8spf i'm talking about 30spf uva&uvb protected and reapply it often. Protect your future you want to be around for a long time right? I don't know about you, but i get scared all the time that my nose is going to fall off from skin cancer.....Okay i'll get off my soapbox now (yesss i got to say soapbox again)....well my life is pretty much the same.....hmmmm my mind has completly gone blank...yeah i know not that unsual. why is it when you want time to pass quickly it doesn't, but when you don't it does?.....is there really such a thing as the perfect job? I don't think there is, but i sure have it pretty good. Next week we get to go to a river cats game during work. i mean what kind of company does that? and cake day every last day of the month? just imagine like 15 different sheet cakes of all kinds of flavors. its almost just too much. i'm certainly not used to it compared to my last job....you know i wish jon mayer was touring again this summer. he is such an awesome guitar player.....i wish i wasn't always feeling so antsy. i always feel like i should be doing something going somewhere or planning something. hmmmm well i guess thats it for me. i know your really disappointed my rambling is over.

I actually wrote this blog on May 31st and emailed it to myself, but never got around to posting it so I decided to do it now. I have another one coming that I wrote a week or so ago too....
Hmmmm well what can I say time passes quickly….i don’t even remember the last time that I wrote. It’s amazing how life can change so quickly….ok I know I’m sounding melodramatic (yeah I just wanted to be able to say that word). Well I no longer work at the doctors office. Thank goodness cause I thought I was going to die from complete boredom. I think I was literally loosing active brain cells because my brain never had to use them so they became numb. The one thing that really sucks is I no longer get to see my best bud everyday. It’s sucks because we were so used to talking and seeing each other everyday. We saw each other more than we saw our boyfriends, I know probably not such a good thing. However, we are still the best of friends and when we do get to see each other nothing has changed. I think that shows how strong our relationship is. Okay enough of that gush….Well lets see what have I been doing other than sleeping and going to work? Oh yeah I have been eating in between and during those things. I had grilled mahi mahi for the first time a couple of weeks ago and it was sooooo good….Oh I recently paid off my car. My car loan was for five years and I paid it off in three years and one month. It feels good to know that it’s all mine, but at the same time I’m kinda waiting for something bad to happen because I remember a couple days after Julie paid off her echo she got in an accident. Hopefully, though nothing like that happens to me.

So my new job….I absolutely love the company they treat their employees so good. For example in June they are paying for us to go to an afternoon River Cats game during work. I mean what kind of place does those kinds of things? It’s crazy. I have to say it has taking me quite a bit to get used to all of the good things they do for their employees. The last day of every month is cake day and so we go over to HQ1 (building 1) and in the cafeteria (yep they have their own cafeteria and game room) and over against one wall there are tables spread out with about 25 or more sheet cakes to choose from and I mean they have every thing from raspberry crème cake to chocolate truffle cake(yeah it is as rich tasting as it sounds). It’s just crazy. Even with all these good things I’m surrounded with I still feel antsy. What I do isn’t very exciting and I get quite bored, but I just remind myself that the company I work for is and at 6 months I can start testing and applying for different departments. They are very big on hiring from within the company. My boss is also awesome which is another thing I’m not used to my last boss used to make me feel bad every time I asked for a day off or basically just anything I asked her which is totally opposite of my new boss…..Anyone reading this must have fallen asleep by now and is no longer reading this. Sorry I know my life is one big bore.

Today I decided that I am going to start saving for a trip to I don’t know where. Of course I’m not going to go until next summer, but I need to start saving now because I want to go for at least two weeks so I’m thinking its going to cost me at least $2,000. I’m thinking of putting some money in a cd so in a year from now I can take it out and have at least a little bit of interest. I’m just getting excited thinking of all the things I can plan to do and all the research I get to get.

Do I or don't I???????

That is the question I keep asking myself. Did I or did I not get the job? They sure made me think I got it. They did everything, but tell me your hired. First let me rewind and tell you exactly what the interview was like. You may be able to use this as things not to say during an interview. It was really two interviews. First with the HR department and then with the actual department i'd be working in. First one when great and I think I was exactly what she was looking for (yeah I know what you're thinking boy I feel sorry for her). It was the second that was well......I can't think of the right word.....

Oh yeah so the second one was with the two supervisors of the department and it started off fine I answered all the questions to their liking then the guy pops out with "Oh by the way I hope it doesn't bother you, but we allow smoking on the floor" and the first thing that popped out of my mouth was "ok" and then I was like wait ewhhhhhhhh is that legal? Then he was like "I'm totally joking with you" so the interview is still going ok and they asked if I had any questions and I was like "What kind of shoes are allowed could I wear open toed? and he was like "Yeah, but no thongs or anything like that" and what came tumbling out of my blabbering mouth???? Yep stupidly I said "Do you mean flip flops?" (I am so laughing at my stupidity right now) The guy like turned bright red paused for a minute and was like yeah thats what I meant. The girl was just crackin up though. So I tried to roll over that mud hole, but then rolled right into another when I was like "Well I'm just so used to wearing scrubs and sneakers" and he was like "What's scrubs are those sneakers?" and I said, "Are you serious?" and the girl started laughing and the guy had this blank look on his face and I said "You really are serious you don't know" and then the girl informed him what they were and he was like oh those. So you're thinking it can't get any worse right? That I couldn't say anything any more stupid than I already have right? Well actually if you know me you know that I was just on a roll so why not keep going right? Anyways after a minute they were like is there anything else you would like to tell us? And I started out good with "I love to learn new things," and then I had to add "I'm slow, but once I get something I do it well and remember it" and before I could say more they both started laughing and the guy was like "Great thing to say interviews over" he was totally joking around, but I wonder what he was really thinking.....

Now that I have typed all this out and let me tell you I have only talked about the highlights of the interview...yeah now that I think about it I pretty much know for sure I didn't get it, but oh well at least I provided some comic relief for those who might read this. I can't can't imagine what my next interview will be like... :)